simplicityisvirtue

What actually makes the difference?

2007-02-09T07:22:00.000-08:00

today was a day packed with alotta stuff..
well lemme start from morning..
had my last paper today which was electrical technology.
it was very very very easy. lol.
after that in the afternoon.. there was the release of O lvl results and
ncc training..
hmm.. the secs 1s are alright but i tink some where in their head they've gt a attitude problem.. lol.. their kinda rude and dont even respect the seniors that much..
argh..
i cant tink..
som many things happened..

my head feels like its gonna explode cause of overload..
everything that i'm tryin to tink of now is jsut blank..
nvm..

anyways.. i just wanna congratulate those who did fairly well in their O lvls and hope they dont give up cause they didnt do as well as they wanted or they didnt live up to their parents expectations.

persevere.
i have.
why cant u?

from next ncc training onwards i guess i'm gonna be more strict with the sec 1s.
i dislike being looked upon as a person who can easily be stepped on.
there's always still the darker side of me that my guess is many dont want to see.
some people have seen it before and they know how "evil" i can become..
so here's a warning to the specs reading my blog.. you all better teach and control the sec 1s well.

thats if i'm going back again..

Goodnight

return of the reds.

2007-02-07T06:11:00.000-08:00

rawr. clement gt the red ipod! lols.
hi everyone. great start to my blog entry right?
lols.

yay! one more paper to hols!
O lvl results out this friday too.. haha

rawr.

i'm just bored...
had the weirdest dream lols.
dreamt of someone.
someone that i will not mention.
lols.
oOoOo the tension.
lols =D

2007-01-28T02:59:00.000-08:00

i wanna get carried away..
i wanna be swept away by you..
O lord..
i guess someday we'll know
what the wind says when she cries..
someday we'll know why was the sky blue..
someday we'l know..
thats why i need you here..
O lord...

please give me faith to carry on with this world..

the strong wind blew and the pages were flipped to april 9th.. and it read that faith is the antisepic of the soul..

what i really need now is a day where there is no disturbance and i can just lay in your arms and rest.. i'm really drained in my mind and soul.. and body..

john 3:16.. where it all started

2007-01-27T08:20:00.000-08:00

finally.. i can blog again..
i'm back by popular demand?
lols.
Spenser this time i'll write a whole lotta things alright?

okays. lets start.

its been weeks since i've time to blog and i tink my blog is getting stale lols. no one except some people tags my blog anymore. but nevermind this will still be the blog where i'll pour out everything i did..
i've been kinda busy these few weeks.. with wat? i dont know..
firstly i was maple.. really wanted to lvl fast but it gt stale after a while.. and my paper is in about 24 hrs time and i mapled today.. how bad is that?
am i addicted to it? guess not since i'm stopping.
met a nice person there. her name is seow wen. hope i spelled it correctly haha.. she's my SECOND online gf(those kind of play play one la.. dont anyhow think).. my first was in RO.. and she's still playing.. lols.. anyway.. ya.. i wanted to follow glenn and outreach lols.. so when i asked her out of the blue was she a christian.. guess what her answer was.
it was a YES.. lols.. i dont know if it was a failure but at least i tried.. i think she was the first ever person i asked this question so boldy.. anyways.. we chatted more and i found out that she stayed near my old place in serangoon and the most amazing thing is that she used to go to PLMC. how cool is that? but she left and went to trinity methodist at serangoon gardens instead.. oh well.. at least i tired =)

next.. school.. i've been struggling to get up for lessons due to mapling in the night.. hmm guess i am a lil bit addicted.. but.. thats not the point here.. i missed most of the revision lessons due to waking up late and i just keep telling my mom,whose tryin to find another job now, that i dont have school.. sometimes i really dont want her to bug me.. but at times i wish she did..

another thing is NCC.. we've gt new cadets in this year and everyone is feeling all depressed and down.. danny is gonna transfer school.. xin hong, winston,walter and wai yu cant make it due to school.. xin ying would be finishing her term.. 5 years is long.. shamsul is about to go for ITP.. and that leaves with me fadhil and hafiz.. so.. being the most senior there.. i've to take over almost all operations.. i guess its time to prepare.. but where do i start?

lastly.. my personal life..
its been kinda difficult without someone whom i can share with anymore..
i know those people reading this would be like hey there's me..
but its not that i dont trust you.. its just that.. i need some one i'm used to talking with..
no offence guys and gals..
i'm like stuck high and dry and no where to turn to..
my future is bliss..
i dont know what i really want to be.. whether my course would give me a satisfying job..
am i just thinking too much?
i've been praying alot these few days.. but i havent touched on the Word in a long time..
to tell you the truth.. in all the years as far as i can remember.. i never read the bible from cover to cover.. and i feel kinda ashamed about it.. calling myself a christian and not reading the bible.. the most impt book.. after all these years am i still a so called 'sunday christian'?
i dont know..
argh.

sometimes i wish knew sometimes how i felt inside..
behind this mask..
who i trully am..
who i was..
i tink i'm in a dilemia/dilema, forgot how to spell, of finding out who i am and what is it that i'm doing wrong with my life..
sure i can have fun and stuff but i cant find the satisfaction in doing the stuff i do..
are my standards too high? or issit cause i'm too open?
or do i mix around with girls too much? i dont know.. and frankly at times i dont care..
maybe thats why..

but all in all..
i do love God..
but i just dont know what to do and i'm still waiting for something to happen..

lastly.. love life.. guess this is what everyone has been waiting for yeah?
rumors have been going around in church that i like moo right? well.. its a no.
not definite no but just no.
we're just friends..
i'm stuck in a 3 to 4 way situation here and i dont know why..
after all these years i still cant differentiate wats love and wats infatuation..
i really feel kinda dumb.. ( is it cause i'm still too simple minded at times? )

Shoutouts:
Faith dont worry.. bad things will always be followed by good things ( thats what i believe in)

Moo: happy advanced birthday to you. have fun growing old(er).

Bird: Dont put on a sad mask pls.. hate people to look sad..

Raina: hope you're recovering =)

Danny: have fun in VSS..

Kelvin: hope you'd work hard in school.. dont feel neglected in anyway.. any problem can find us.. i know you dont know my blog but i'll just type this cause i feel that you really need help..

Glenn: Thanks for creating the cell blog.. i tink that when you love someone( not the relationship kind) just spending time saying Hi and catching with them would actually be able to make someone's day. I do hope you would be able to cope with your internship and everything. Take Care Bro.

To Everyone: If you want to leave a comment, you can but i may not reply it.. and i do hope that you all have fun in ur life.. cause like my link says.. its just life. there are two meanings towards it and i do hope you people would understand it in times to come.

Goodnight all ^^
gt a flight in the morning.
SYFC i did not mean any harm.

sorry..

its been a long long while..

2007-01-21T07:29:00.000-08:00

its been a long time since i blogged.
well nothing much to blog about.
lols.
except that i've gt a great group of new padawans. lols.
not exactly mine la but still counted la.
hope they will walk the long road together =)

sorry drey i now then blog.
oh yeah.
bbq-ing in the rain was the best. lols.

a new year a new start?

2007-01-06T08:59:00.000-08:00

heys its the new year!
time for the resolutions:
-NONE-
i dunno wat to type about.. either that i've gt like too many to lists..

everyone's moving on but me..
i'm still stuck in the yesteryear of my own..
haha..
what am i talking about...

today service was good..
guess its time to let everything go and move on..
but i'm just waiting for something which i dont quite pin point..

about relationship?about school? about church? about frens?
i dont know..
i just know that i'm suppose to wait for something..
but i dont know wat..

anyways.. i tink i gotta quit my job soon..
SYFC gonna take up loads of my time..
so ya..
gonna miss working..

hmm.. i dunno wat else to type now..
but somehow i'm feeling kinda sad inside la..
i know why la.. but i dunno why i should feel sad about it.. so ya..

GOODNIGHT EVERYONE!
GOD BLESS!

2006-12-24T08:37:00.000-08:00

o yeah.. two more things i didnt add... i may be banned from going to church already so yeah..
so i guess i may not be able to see you all again.

and secondly... not even my parents know anything about me.. trust me..

well.. maybe sometimes..

2006-12-24T07:58:00.000-08:00

hi everyone its been a long time since i posted an entry..
sorry that i've to allow you to wait sooooooooo long.

well.. been kinda busy for the pass few days with lotsa stuff especially work..
but heck i aint gonna blog about it..

what i want to blog about now is what happened today on the 24th of december 2006..
today morning started off kinda rush cause i woke up kinda late..
service was alright but being tired my mind drifted off..
the girls singing was so soothing that i tink if i was in bed it would have put me to sleep immediately..

after service went around to wish people merry christmas eve..

okay.. it just reached 12 MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

after that we went for lunch...
then we went to play lan..
now there's where i did something bad..
well.. initially i told my mom that i'm going for the night service..
well.. after playing lan for say about 5 hrs..
glenn decided not to go and so did japheth and bird..
so being follower.. i just follow them lo.. without thinking of the consequences...
so we continued to play on till 9+ which then i left and took a cab home..

well when i reached home..
i cooked up a story that i was listening during the service and i didnt know who led worship and blah blah blah..
so my mom questioned alot of stuff and in the end i just said that after worship i just left and went downstairs to talk with japheth and bird..(sorry to have used ur names guys and gals..)

well.. about 30 mins later she came back and ask why i decieved them and asked whether i knew it was wrong and why didnt i apologise and all that stuff...

there's one simple reason why i chose what i chose..
well.. cause i didnt wan to anger her.. and i tot i could smoke through it..
well.. in the end she gt angry anyway.. and i really hate it when she's angry..
whether i tell the truth or not she'll still get angry for no apparent reason..
to those who knows about it you should know how i feel..

there are times when i seriously wanna just hit something..
but oh wells.. i'm still learning to control myself so ya...
there are so many things that i want to do but still cant..

argh.. there are so many things i do that i tot could be for the better..
guess i was wrong..

well.. merry christmas is suppose to be happy and i will just have to try and be i guess.

whats the worst thing is that she said that dont you know that it is a sin..
hello.. of course i know its a sin..
i just read a verse today..
if a person sins forgive the person,
if on the same day a person sins 7 times forgive him 7 times.

i know i'm in the wrong..
but at times you just dont have to go that far right?

well.. people who read this just know that i'm going through hard times and try not to go to my family matters lest i wanna share it with ya..
there are lotsa stuff people dont know about me..
but i guess only time will tell its secrets..

i do wish u all a merry christmas and a happy new year..

goodnights..

Lights Are Green

2006-12-10T03:47:00.000-08:00

I feel so glad =)
one thing has already been settled..
however there's still something thats not settled yet..
when will it be settled?
i dont know.. its been draggin on for weeks and alot of people are getting sick and tired..

but not to think about it now man..
i've gt a cprog pract test tomorrow..
i have to score very well.. if not i cant forgive myself..
i promised to work hard and i shall..

A.Z's back from outer space

.Everything's Changing.

2006-12-08T06:33:00.000-08:00

MBJD is falling apart.
=) = =(.

Facing Problems.

Missing certain stuff now.

Confused all over.

In real need to explain to myself of certain stuff and whether i've gt the courage to do it.

why is everything i do,most of the time, have a bad outcome.

.myworldistumblingdownfasterthanthelondonbridge.

..

2006-12-07T05:27:00.000-08:00

isitsupposetohurtsomuchinside?

061206

2006-12-06T06:58:00.000-08:00

=D
today was a fun day though it was partially ruined by my mom but all in all it was still alright =P
introduced aretha to danny.
they seem to be getting along.. haha..
someday danny some day when nabilah is back.. hope i gt the name correct..
lol..

shant blog much about today.. haha..
except that we're happy =)
A-Z thought the letters are far apart we're always close.

for people who are feeling sad right now(especially moo):
take care that thy faith is of the right kind -- that it is not a mere belief of doctrine, but a simple faith,depending on the Christ, and on Christ alone.
Charles Haddon Spurgeon

Sweet Annoiting Wash Me Over

2006-12-05T07:47:00.000-08:00

=D that explains most of today.
today's staff meeting was experiential.
Andrew gave us a heart to heart talk and i still dun understand why so many people still doesnt like him.. its takes a real man to pour his heart out to so many people..
cant wait to get back to work.. its been like a month since i worked.

anyways.. tml's event is also =D
ahha. gt lab test. which means i end school early!
ahha..
hmm.. in the afternoon gonna meet Aretha then go library to study..
after that its dinner and home i go i guess.

this week is passing real fast.

MBJD are still having troubles..
its kinda sad to see everything go..
moo.. i seriously do not know what to do.. its left to God to do whatever he can..
i guess you're the only one left fighting girl.
sorry i cant really help you out..
but i would if u could come up with a solution..

zach.
gghopeyou'rehappy =P

its a freaky day.

2006-12-04T07:51:00.000-08:00

ok.. the pass 15 mins have been a bit creepy..
thanks anobanana for reminding me of the song..
because of that it reminded me of the song we are the reason..
and for some reason.... its seems to involved a few people...
first i told bird and moo..
moo said her fren also just told her about the song..
then later bird said she maybe would be playing it for christmas this year..
then later i asked cai ying if she had the song.. she said not and directed my to Tee..
i asked Tee.. and guessed wat he said...
haha.. he said he had the song..
and he was shock cause around two weeks ago bird asked him for the SAME two songs i asked him.. the other song was days of elijah..

Just One Act.
Can really make a Difference.
thank you Lord.

.feels like the whole world has been lifted up.

2006-12-04T06:11:00.000-08:00

hellos =)

today has been a great day!.. i repeat great!.. haha *pouts*
well.. school was alright today.. during cprog learned a new topic called array..
seems chim but i tink i can do it.. haha.. then after that was CRS..
during CRS alot of arguments going on..
lol.. and lotsa shouting..
luckily its CRS class and not a real fight..
we're just ACTING so teacher can give us more marks..

after that i met Aretha and went home together..
chit and chatted all the way.. lol..
bumped in to christopher at cck..
said our hi's and then bye's..

then now.. i'm home!
hahaa.. short a sweet day..

quote of the day:

To my Creator I resign myself,humbly confiding in His goodness and in His mercy
through Jesus Christs for the events of eternity.

John Dickinson.

is this the end?

2006-12-02T11:10:00.000-08:00

the day started off quite alright..
kinda slept at like 6am.. woke up at around 11.30+ by wei xiongs call..
coming over liao.. so gt up and changed then went out..
well.. we drove around Singapore la.. shant go into detail..
kinda lazy to actually.. not that i dont wanna tell..

church was like really no comments la..
my walk with God is alright but its the life that i'm living thats giving me a big headache..
why why why?
during the whole supper its like i'm just sitting there eating my food and keep hush... ate like 7-8 packets of chilli for my fries not forgetting one curry sauce.. all i could do was just stuff myself with food.. didnt feel all that right..

then when were getting ready to leave... uncle James ask me how was i.. i was hit hard by that question... though i knew a reply would be a lie... i had to say i was fine.. i really dont wanna like. talk about it man.. after i saw what happened...

the bus ride home was a tragedy..
with like my mind racing with so many thoughts...
i couldnt take it..
though i did hold back most tears..
some still trickled down.........................................................................................................
wats with everyone now man...
is this TNG the EMO generation?

thanks aretha for chatting with me like till so late btw.. its like 3.20am now and ur still chatting with me..

will mbjd really come to an end?
i was caught in a whirlpool i didnt want to come in...

to fs and kokwei.
i can be happy but i still know that i have all this at the back of my head.

whatcanidonowbutprayforaclearconsciencetosolverthisissue
soonithinki'llbecomedeliriousandgoinsane.

ARGH! sleepless nights.

2006-12-01T11:50:00.000-08:00

i cant sleep....
why why why...
its like 4 am and i'm still sitting infront of the comp....
lying on the bed counting isnt helping at all...
is there too much on my mind?
if there is what is on my mind exactly???

i'm so damn bored..
msn i put away sleeping but..
i'm still here...
jowell just knocked off...
why can i sleep..........................................

this is getting kinda irritating...
anyways.. i d/l utorrent again..
d/l borat the movie and robin hood merry men in tights..
seriously i'm getting stoned by boredom.
boredom knocks hard.. REAL hard...

i'm typing in the dark...
sorry if i made any errors...
cause i cant really see anything and trusting on instincts to see where the buttons are..

whatamifeelinginsideofmenow?
lonelinessgriefsadnessoramijustbeingtooparanoidaboutcertainstuff?
idontknowwhatswithmethesefewdaysbutGodplshelpmegetpassthisperiod.
thisworldisfilledwithsomuchviolenceyethappinessstillpersists.
somuchdestructionyettherearestillsomewhopersevere.
amifeelingsolow?
whatamitroubledabout?
BGR?
idontknow
SCHOOL?
idontknoweither
CHURCH?
thatsthebiggestquestionmark.

ithinkicantsleepisbecauseicantbeartonotworryaboutmyfriendsandfamily.
i'veseenalotsincethestartofthisyearandthingsaren'tpretty.
i'veturnsaddistic.
jealousyisrisingatanalarmingratebuti'mstilltryingmybesttokeepitdown.
angerisburninginsideofme.
ismyfacademeltingaway..
canlifestillgoonthewayitis..
amirunningawayfromthetroublesiface..
amistillthepersoniknow..
amistillthepersonothersknowmeas..
amistillme.....
whoisme..
ME..

butthenagain...
memememememememe...
amithatselfish...
iguessiam...
howcanichange...
tellmesomeone...
tellme...
dontgivemebullocks...
tellmetruthfullywhatyouthinkaboutme..
tellmehowhaveioffendedyou..
tellmewhatamilike..
iwanttochange..
beforeicanchangetheworld..
i'vetochangemyself.

MANINTHEMIRROR-MJ.

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2006-11-30T05:45:00.000-08:00

Its been a looong two days i tink.. lol.. since i last blogged.. issit two? i tink it is.. lol..
even i lost track of time.. o wait its 3...

well.. my knee was alright for a while but it seems to be hurting again... i seriously needa see the doc.. i dont tink i'll be following my classmates to Sakura International tomorrow for a few particular reasons..

anyways... gt 87 for cprog... well.. its a good start i guess for this sem.. i've to get straight As man.. i wan to at least graduate with at 3.5 and above but....... it seems that i may not be able to get it due to my poor performance in sem 1.. but all in all i still must strive for excellence!

all i can do now is just carry on studying..
kinda miss work...
jsut a few more weeks and i can go back to work..
but i hope i CAN go back to work with my injured knee...

i'm so bored these few days..
i really want to do some soul searching but i cant seem to know where to start..

i feel so emo man.. these few days.................................................
i feel as if somethings missing in my life but i just cant pinpoint wat is it..

bored
bored
bored
bored
bored
bored
bored
bored
bored
bored
bored
bored
bored
bored
bored
bored
bored
bored
bored
bored

ok.. i'm freaking bored..

peoplewhoarethehappiestinfrontofothersareusuallytheoneswiththemostproblems
thosewhoshowtheirproblemsinfrontofothersarethosewhojustbearwiththeproblemstheirfaving.

Ouch.

2006-11-27T07:28:00.000-08:00

Damn.
knew something wasnt right today with my knee.
shouldnt have played soccer.
after stopping Zul's driving strike with my right leg my knee went beserk...
not really beserk beserk but.. aiya... i think you got part of the idea.. lol..
well.. it hurts now and i needa see the doc tomorrow.
hope its alright..
feels like something is loose inside..

i'm so bored and its sooo cold..
with the wind blowing and stuff....

tink i'm going to sleep.......
nights everyone.

What a Day

2006-11-25T08:56:00.000-08:00

well. today started quite alright.
woke up kinda early for no apparent reason then went back to sleep.
haha.
had a promotion interview today at 11.
it was quite good so i guess only 9 of us Air CLTS would become SCLTS.
i guess its been a good long run.
after the interview danny,xin hong, qin zheng and me went to J8 for lunch.
when we came out of the MRT we saw scott so we ased him to accompany us and thats what he did. we initially wanted to go to the foodcourt to eat but it was too packed so in the end after walking a few rounds we went to yoshinoya and danny just gt a drink since the place wasnt halal.
after we ate we walked around a bit in J8 and went to see XH's ex-gf. haha.
it was darn funny la.. we kept going round and round..
anyways.
about 1+ we left the place and headed back to our homes.
by the time i reached home it was already 2+..
at around 3+ i went to bed to take a long nap..
aha.. say about 2 hrs?
after that i went to meet jap for dinner.
had service then went for supper.
too bad jap couldnt follow us to supper today. he had alot of things he had to do..
whats more he's got work tomorrow so hope God will give him the energy to stay active minded tomorrow.
JIA YOU!
After service today was kinda of a drag for me..
felt kinda anti social but nvm.. just followed them la..
then throughout the whole supper i just sat there..
and then jowell said that i like so left out.. lol..
well its true.. but nvm beats going home...
after supper called my dad to see if he could pick me up but he didnt pick up
so went home by bus..

wonder what real friends are.
i dont know why but for the past few weeks i havent really been feeling ok with the friends i have.. i feel left out in everything.. i dont even know if i'm still friends with them or am i just a dog following them..
its hard to find good friends nowadays.. especially those even when they're troubled who will still go places with you..
even if you're feeling down dont you think that maybe sometimes you should just go out..
i know i'm being selfish here but.. what you do also affects others right..
nvm.. i think i'm getting kinda out of the point here too..
anyways.. Pastor B said that we should always make friends but if we make so many its kinda difficult to actually keep in contact with them..
when i was young i always thought that it would be easy but now i realise that i'm becoming more forgetful..

anyways. ask yourself this.. dont you think somedays you just feel left out of everything and you find everything meaningless?
today i felt that..
but i dont feel that everything is meaningless..
i felt that even though you've gt friends.
sometimes they'll still desert you and you've got to do some things alone.
you might be asking yourself this.
what have i done to deserve this?
you've done nothing.
its how you view the situation.
sure some of your friends are feeling black.
some of them maybe couldnt careless about you
or maybe some just plainly forgot that you're there.
but again.
who cares?
God wouldnt care cause we're to serve him and not to satisfy our own needs at times.

anyways.
I may not be myself these few days..
maybe i'll be ok tomorrow but maybe the following day i may not..
i may not show it at times but if you're reading this.
there are just somethings you dont know.
like problems i'm facing.
so i hope that sometimes you would just shh and stop whining about your everyday problems but actually taking them into your stride and just going with it.
why complain? you still need to do it anyways right..

guess thats enough for today..
aint gonna blog anymore for today....
nights everyone.

The old has gone. the new has come. nothing will be replaced but only created.

2006-11-22T06:52:00.000-08:00

its been quite a while since i last blogged..
and lotsa things has happened.
but today i'm only gonna blog on a few stuff..

firstly i'll start off with what i did today.
well.. i went to watch a movie.. wanted to watch tenacious D but reach there realised it was
actually M18.. so in the end i caught Casion Royale instead..
the movie was alright...
after that went to meet Amanda Cleo Dwight Faith Jospeh and Isaac.
ate BnJ's banana split and coffee beans chocolate frappuchino with peppermint for dinner...
haha.. weird right?
anyways..
after that we talked alot of weird stuffs la..
most of it i cant remember..
lol...

okays.. now on to the real stuff that i really really wanna blog about..

Serangoon Garden South School is officially closing down from tomorrow..
argh.. it feels so wrong for such a good school to close..
it was my father's primary school it was mine...
and i tot it would be there for quite a long time but i guess not..
the campus really brings back memories..
the classrooms..
canteens..
the spots where we would always hang out..
the hall..
computer lab...
feild..
EVERYWHERE!

here's something that i just wanna type..
i remember i used to go to primary school even before the gates open.. i really loved the school that much to do that..
it was a very nice memory..
the teachers..
the friends..
the times we spent..

monday i secretly went back without telling my parents..
frantically trying to find a digicam the previous day..
i met elise in the morning to borrow hers.. THANKS SO MUCH ELSE.
now you know why i really needed it..
i went back with leonard and we walked the path which we used to walk to school
and reminise the wonderful times and hard times we spent together..

thinking about it really makes me feel so warm inside....
but the thought of closing down the campus just aches my heart..
like why?
why close it down?
its such a new environment..

Glenn said before a man who claims he doesnt cry is a liar
and i wont say i do not cry as the though of this already makes me want to... however i just cant bare to shed tears for it..
i dont want to be sad.

i'll really treasure it.
Serangoon Garden South School.
Strive for Excellence.
the name and motto i'll never forget.

The motto of the school is what made me really motivated to do stuff i want to do..
To play badminton..
to be an all rounder in sports..
to be good in my academic results..
And all the life skills it taught me..
and the friends whom i shared the time to learn with..
it really taught me alot of things that till now i still show respect for.
It taught me one exceptional thing to.

What we experience when we're young and how we act would really determine on how we grow and nuture. The choices we make are crucial.

i thank the Lord for allowing me to live in the time of that generation.
we experience both the old and new of the world.
the suffering and the achievements of the countries..

May God Bless all those from Serangoon Garden South School and hope most of them will get over the loss of A school of such great honour.

*darn cough making me feel worse*

Just another day in paradise.

2006-11-15T08:37:00.000-08:00

hello everyone.
today school was alright..
so many tests coming up..
its time to start mugging.
today started revising maths in the library.
thats one of the few times i really study..
actually i was just doing questions but it is still studying.. lol.

in the end at night tuition cancelled.
so went j8 for dinner with winston and elsie.. then saw junwei,nizam and fidaee all working at the coffeebean there.. lol. shocked man to see them there.
well.. we went to pastamania for dinner.
it was quite alright though elsie went cuckoo in the head.. lol..

then met japheth to go shopping for nikki's birthday present which is this friday.
too bad wont be celebrating with them this sat as i'm going to malaysia..
haha.

just watched Robots.
its a well plotted movie i must say.
its quite original too.

one thing it teaches is that

Instead of moving forward all the time, sometimes we have to step back and look back on what we've done. What were the initial reason's we started to commit ourselves to the cause?
Are we achieving the goals which we set in our lives or are we astraying from it?

next year is going to be very hectic.
its time to buck up and start studying.
i love work. its fun and get to meet new people every now and then.
i learn how to do customer relations and how the customer service line is like.
the are many different people out there with different personalities
and thats what i guess makes them unique in their own way.
without that special person in the world it seems just out of place.
what would the world be without gossipers without politicians without people of different opinions?
who make choices that change people's lives?

What would it be like if there's isnt any God with us?

my opinion would be is that the world would not even be here by now.
it would have destroyed itself.

We have to keep this clear in our mind.
what we do now affects our future.
what we do now is what keeps us living our lives to what it can trully be.
dont you agree with that?

year 2006 is ending.
2007 would be a more challenging year.
we need to prepare ourselves to face what is coming.
have faith everyone and we can do it.
Because of grace, we're saved.

thank you for all those who influenced my life a great lot.
thank you Lord for bringing them into this world.
though i may not really show them how i feel about them, i really want them to know that they are loved.
i'm sorry for the wrong doings i did.
i'm sorry for all the critics i made to others.
i'm sorry if i've hurt you before.
i'm sorry for everything i've done that may have led you to think of certain things that may not be good or bad.
I believe the Lord has already forgiven me.
but i too want you to forgive me.
if you're reading this post.
saying it in your heart is already enough for i know a person cant hate someone for ever.

when i go one day.
my wish is that i've influenced you in a way that you'd always be happy no matter what knocks you down.
Even Life.
the big 4 letter word.
Life has given you two choices to be happy or sad.
Life has also given you alot of chances for you to get up on your feet and work hard again.
Life is hard cause you think it is.
Dont be so harsh on yourself.
just let go and live with the simple pleasure's given to you.

goodnights.
smile and the whole world smiles with you.

(God must have spent) A little more time on you

2006-11-13T06:44:00.000-08:00

(God must have spent) A little more time on you
by N'sync

Yeah....
Oh yes
Ohhh..yeah..
Can this be true?
Tell me, can this be real?
How can I put into words what I feel?
My life was complete
I thought I was whole
Why do I feel like I'm losing control?
I never thought that love could feel like this
and you've changed my world with just one kiss.
How can it be that right here with met
here's an angel?
It's a miracle...

Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep
Your soul is like a secret
That I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that it's true
God must have spent...
A little more time
On you...
(A little more time, yes he did baby)

In all of creation
All things great and small
You are the one that surpasses them all
More precious than
Any diamond or pearl
They broke the mold
When you came in this world
And I'm trying hard to figure out
Just how I ever did without
The warmth of your smile
The heart of a childThat's deep inside
Leaves me purified

Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep (and deep)
Your soul is like a secret
That I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that it's true
God must of spent...
A little more time
On you...
(on you, on you, on you, you....on you, on you, on you, you..) ohhh...
(on you, on you, on you, you....on you, on you, on you, you..)yeah...

Never thought that love could feel like this
and you changed my world with just one kiss.
How can it be that right here with me
There's an angel?
It's a miracle...

Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep (peaceful and deep)
Your soul is like a secret
That I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that it's true
God must of spent...
A little more time
On you...

(on you, on you, on you, you..)
God must of spent...
A little more time
on you
(on you, on you..you....you..oooh..yeah)
A little more timeon you... ohhh

11th nov what a special day.

2006-11-11T08:32:00.000-08:00

17 years ago i was born on this day!
haha.
happy birthday to myself.
thnx to all that had wished me and given me the presents
i'll really treasure them for life.

as i dont really have much birthday parties after p6
i aint really been celebrating it.
it feels such a long time..
and since i come from a small family getting gifts is not usual.

thx to clement,kok wei, fan sheng, marilyn and last but not least melody
for the trade mark gift of WAH LAO.
haha.
next i would like to thank to the Cathay staff who wished me today.
after that, i'd like to thank the 4 "da jies" for the box with all the stufff inside.
lets type it out here.
Del Monte banana x 4
Tissue papers with stuff written on it x 2
hi chew x 3
choclate
kit kat x 4
ferrero roche x 4
small banana x 1
brochures x 2
evanescence postcard x 1
used eraser x 1
10 cents x2
a leaf from kovan x 1
gv ticket x 1
fake movie ticket x 1

i tink that should be about all.. lol

next i would like to thank those who called me to wish me happy birthday
thnx kor for the song too =)

thnkx to all those who wished me today too.

finally. i would like to thank mbjd for the thoughful gifts.

this is the first time i received so many presents from frens..
i'm so touched. =)

Not forgetting i would like to thank the Lord for this marvelous day

7th nov.

2006-11-07T07:51:00.000-08:00

its been 4 days since i last posted and 4 days left till sat.
lol.
anyways.
i'm so tired these few days.. sleep super the late wake up super the early..
lol...
yesterday work so many things happen..
dunno what to type also..
not much time..
i wanna sleep soon..
today suppose to have a make up lesson in school but teacher didnt turn up.
how dumb is that?
make 38 people wake up so early in the morning on a holiday week and then not come for the lesson..
anyways.
since we were in school we went to play soccer.. lol..
i gt rammed in the jaw and alvin sprained his ankle an the sore was like really big man..
well.. my jaw is better now.. i tink though its still sore but i'll cope with it i guess..
after that went to kovan to teach physics to spenser..
couldnt concentrate man..
too tired.. went up to purchase a study guide which will really help him and i hope he really is studying and wont miss the paper tomorrow..

i've really gt alot of things to say..
but i just dont feel like saying anything..
what am i thinking man..

just now talk with faith on the phone cause she was bored and so was i as spenser was out with bird studyin...
yawns.
then talk on the phone and chat with baabaa and cleo and amanda...

why am i typing all this?
lol..
i dont know..
i'mm too lazy to start on elearning today..
haix...
ok.. gonna go sleep now.
nights !

3 nov 06 (midnight)

2006-11-03T08:56:00.000-08:00

Hellos everyone!
i'm home early today!
haha..
today at work i did Cineshop so nothing much to do.
only needed 6 mins to close everything(sign cash book.. etc.)
haha.
this was my fastest record sia..

today.. clement came to intervie at Cathay.. got in.. but a few hours later say dont wan cause gt
other offers.. haha

theworldisbecomingevenmorechaoticaseachdaypassesby
allicandependonnowismyfaith.
allicandonowistojustsithereandcontinuetothinkofhowtosolvetomorrow'sproblems
i'mnotworryorwhatbutijustwantcertainstufftostop,
causeitsstartingtogetrealbad.

today has been a weird day.

i dont want to talk much about today.

its just not a day to share i guess.

well i'll just say something to those i've talked to today..

i know its kinda lame but this statement really works.

Life is set with obstacles.
when you fall, no matter with what reason,
always keep your faith with you and believe that things will get better.
pick yourself up and continue on.
dont look back in regret but look back at the choices you made with confidence.
you wouldnt be here if you didnt do what you did.
good or bad the choice is already made.
To find peace is to find fault with oneself and then correcting it.

goodnights.

2nov.

2006-11-02T07:56:00.000-08:00

hi.
aint been blogging much these few days.
kinda tired. this whole week played soccer 3 times.. lol.
first time i played so much in a week.
whoopee! next week is e-learning so i've so called gt a week off.
i'm gonna work during the day and do the assignments by night.

today during soccer something real funny in a way happened.
as i was gonna cross the ball in to the rest to kick.
there were these three rugby girls who were running pass.
then all of a sudden some one shouts be careful dont hit the girls ar.
and it so happens i lose my footing and accidently kicks the ball which grazes off one of the girls head. how unfortunate.
to the girl if you SO happen to read this blog. i'm really SORRY.

nvm about that.
lol.
The Open Door is so darn good.
Rajan was suppose to return the album.
he brought the COVER but not the CD..
lol..

today charlene from church went for the interview at Cathay.
she gt in. haha. see i told her that it was like a high % that she'll get in.
tomorrow would be Clement and Wei Xiong
but Wei Xiong thought again and decided to turn down the offer so i'm just gonna cough up some excuse he couldn't go.

wednesday which was yesterday
had this test in GEMs class ( for those who dont know GEMs is general elective modules and i'm taking pyschology)
it revealed that i have low emotional stability and medium impulsive behaviour.
lol.
is it true?
i dont really know.

i think i'm becoming like spenser..
suddenly just random put any thought into this entry.
lol.
by the way.
thanks spenser for the entry you wrote.
it really blew me away.

wonderhowstheolvlsthisyear?

anyways..
i'm REALLY tired.. i'm gonna turn in early..
been turning up late for lessons these few days and that is not good...

nights everyone.

31st oct midnight

2006-10-31T09:03:00.000-08:00

NOVEMBER IS FINALLY HERE.
happy birthday Ah Po =D
happy belated birthday Vic.
didnt blog about it sorry.
sorry =P

anyway.. back to watching anime again i think.
went to find my third disc for gensoumaden saiyuki.
the show is so touching.
you guys think i must be crazy or something but it really is.
i really love their song open up your mind and its lyrics.
its so.. encouraging.. i cant really describe it.
it you want it just ask me on msn.
if you dont know my msn add.
its windshield80@hotmail.com
lyrics are at the bottom.

watch about 5 episodes..
11 more to go before the first season ends.
haha.
its a nice show to watch.
all the values it teaches you and stuff.

iaintreallygtanythingtotalkabouttoday.
justwonderingifsomeonewouldeveropenuptome.
wouldthepersonreally?
iguessittakestimetotell.
beinghurtmanytimes
showsthatitwasreallytrue.

Open Up Your Mind
by Mirai(they sang songs for inuyasha too.. forgot which song)

Even when it seems that nothing can go right
and you want to just give up,
if you close your eyes,
you can see the world from your heart.

In this world when life can be so tough,
You must be strong,
Just believe in yourself and don't you fear,
So open up your mind and close your eyes,
Take another look from the other side.

Even on a lonely night, when you wander afraid,
you may be alone now,
but your feet can take you however far you want to go, so..

Just hold on tight, because if you close your eyes,
look inside yourself, there's a shining light there.
Yes, I want you to believe in everything.
You can take another look from the other side

Just hold on tight, even if your heart is breaking.
Reach into your soul, even if you can't see tomorrow.
Yes, if you have the strength to live,
You can take another look from the other side,
until you find all that is love...

I wish for you to have the strength
to make it through this world,
so open up your mind,
and you'll be able to see...

Just remember you are not alone
So don't you fear
Even though you're miles away
I'm by your side
So open up your mind and close your eyes
I'll be there for you no matter where you are

The stars may live for a long time, but that doesn't mean
that the same days will repeat over and over forever.
No one can see into tomorrow.

Just hold on tight, because if you close your eyes,
look inside yourself, you'll feel a heartbeat.
Yes, I want you to believe in the future.
You can take another look from the other side.

Just hold on tight, even if your heart is breaking.
Reach into your soul, even if you can't see tomorrow.
Yes, there's another world out there.
You can take another look from the other side,
and you'll be able to find all that is love...

Just hold on tight, because if you close your eyes,
look inside yourself, you'll feel a heartbeat.
Yes, I want you to believe in the "future."
You can take another look from the other side

Just hold on tight, even if your heart is breaking.
Reach into your soul, even if you can't see tomorrow.
Yes, there's another world out there.
You can take another look from the other side,
until you find all that is love...

i guess thats all for today... such meaningful lyrics..
nights everyone.

30th OCT

2006-10-30T07:55:00.000-08:00

another day has passed.
hmm. today was kinda fun =)
morning played soccer with my classmates..
then lesson was quite fast.

crs today watch some sex related video clips from channel news asia's Get Rea!

after that i went to drop by The Cathay to purchase tickets for wednesday's THE COVENANT!!
haha. finally the movie is out. and i'm the first one to get it.. lol... kiasu hor?
after that went to cafe cartel to eat dinner. my first time there.
wei xiong and clement kept tryin to tell me that the portion was quite big and very different from the picture in the menu.
in the end i managed to finish my main course + the lasagne which we were suppose to share but the other two were too full to eat.. so i finished it.. haha..
after that we jokingly said lets go to Carl's Junior to eat now.. lol..

oh yeah! and i bought Evanescence The Open Door today..
its SUPERBLY NICE!
lol.

listened to the album around 5 times already.. lol...
anyways...

yesterday i was at braddell mrt waiting for the train to work.
there was this wheel chair bound person who wanted to enter the mrt as it was a Sunday afternoon, it would of course be crowded and whats more the people in the mrt did not even give way to the handicapped person but stared back instead. how rude right?
as the door was closing soon, the person pushed the wheelchair in to try and force his way in.
luckily they mananged to get it before the door closed.
have the people of Singapore forgotten Basix COURTESY?
whats more they were like aged around my age they should've been taught about that during their studying days.
aren't the efforts of the government useless?
no wonder for the past few years Singapore has been ranked as the last few for Countries with best courtesy.
and today.. as it was around peak hour and we wanted to get out of the MRT,
once the door open.. instead of letting the people off first, the crowd from outside just barged in like nobody's business.. whats the use of settings these rules when no one follows them.
everyone just wants to get a good seat.

today i received an email.
it was about a scientist and the cups of coffee.
one day, a scientist invited a few guests over for a cup of coffee.
when they arrived, the scientist went in to brew the coffee and then came out with cups of different designs.. some exquisite some cheap looking.. unsurprisingly, all the high class cups were taken away first.
this relates to what i've just said because lets pretend that the cups represent personal satisfication and the coffee to be courtesy to others. the purpose of the people going over to the scientist house was actually only to drink coffee and not to choose which cups to drink from..
hope ya all understand what i'm talking about..

anyways.. i'm going to turn in now.. nights..

29th oct 06

2006-10-28T21:20:00.000-07:00

hellos. sorry yesterday didnt post..
i wanted to post when i came back from work but just when i wanted to type,
my mom came in.
LOL.
so had to shut down computer lo..
sorry Aretha and Chrystina

hmm.. yesterday worked extension till 12.
by the time i reached home was already 1+
gt on the comp 2..
thats kinda late huh?
well.. i just woke up.. lol.. its 12 pm now..
called valerie from work to ask if she wants to go out for dinner since she has
the same shift as me.

Jason had sent me an email last night about global warming.
www.stopglobalwarming.org.

global warming is becoming a big problem around the world now.
though we do not really feel effects of it in Singapore, in other parts of the world are actually showing it already.
if you're thinking like how the adults used to "the government will do it for us",
then you're wrong.
though its the government's responsibility to ensure that not much pollution are being released,
the y can only help us to a certain point only.
the rest is left with us.
Look at all the big company's who machine stuff.
i know its expensive to add more filters.
but whats more worth it?
The Earth or Money?
Indonesia has chosen money thats why the farmers are now burning the trees to quicken the re-fertility of the soil. (no offence to Indonesia, i'm just stating a fact)
Again we are stuck with the question
Why are we doing what we are doing?
with the increase of technology, we are draining the Earth's resources which are limited.
but on the other hand, good scientist are those who create technology that uses less of the resources but are actually better than the previous. dont you think so?
what are scientist for if they dont research on good things to help the earth rather than mankind.
most scientist are hired only to EARN money for the company's who hire them.
and whats their purpose?
to make things easier for mankind AT MOTHER NATURE'S fault.
i'm not an ecologist or whatever you call it.
Neither am i a fanatiq for Mother Nature.
what i'm doing here is just to stress that The Earth is in a bad condition.
when are we going to learn that.

anyways, i've got to go prepare for work.

byes!

27th oct 06(midnight)

2006-10-27T09:58:00.000-07:00

its time to sleep.
hope what i said maybe true to you in a way or the other.
got to work tomorrow and sunday.
going to miss service tomorrow.
after what i wrote earlier on today,
i realised one thing
SIMPLICITY IS VIRTUE.

dont you think so?
the simplest things in life can teach us how to be morally upright.
think about it.

anyway.
i'm going to turn in now.
Goodnights everyone.

27th oct 06

2006-10-27T04:31:00.000-07:00

hellos.
didnt blog yesterday cause i was too busy..
after school had to rush to work to take over Julian's shift so that he can take mine today =)
then after that had to do my crs hw.. in which i also didnt go for the lesson today as my mom wanted me to come back home.
so.
ya.
haha.
now i'm managing two blogs at one go as for CRS we have to create another blog for elearning week.
just finished editing all the skins and stuff so ya.. =D

its two more days left till the O lvls start.

i'm so darn bored.
hmm..
let me do up a lists on things that i love to reminisce
(no particular ranking here just which comes to my mind first)

1. Old Cartoons
2.Sunday School
3.Primary School Friends
4.Nonsensical and Funny Movies of the past
5.How we* use to spend our free time *we being my batch and older.
6.All the fun and games we had unlike computer games which are really dull now
7.All the free time we had
8.Weird stuff that we would use to do
9.Catching insects and spiders.

thats all i can think about now.
haha.

thinking about all this stuff just tells me how simple life was.
and how carefree we were as children.
each time we move on in life,
we have to go back to our childhood days to keep us grounded to the world.
and it just breaks my heart to see countries fighting
when during our childhood days we were taught to never repeat history.
Isn't it kinda Ironic?
that things they taught us not to do when we were young are actually happening today
by those who taught us?
Whats the use of teaching us all of that when it doesnt even matter?
I believe that these people have forgotten what their purpose in life is anymore.
they've been trapped in a whirlpool thats just drawing them deeper into the devil's clutches.
dont you agree?
tag my blog if you wan to leave a comment or email me at windshield80@hotmail.com

that'll all be for now.

25th oct 06

2006-10-25T08:02:00.000-07:00

phew.
today passed by like a gust of wind.
morning i woke up late but managed to reach school in time..
i just realised that today's lessons ended early..
hmm.
lecture finished 15 mins early.. practical 1 hr 15 mins earlier and for pyschology class today only needed to attend for 15 mins.. lol..

Today went for JAWA. i cant really remember the real name but i know that the other name is just another weird association.
OH! i remember now.. just as we are..
nvm bout that..
its something like a bible study class but.. just different.
lols.
learnt quite alot of complicated stuff but it all sums down to just one thing.
Loving God is not just about believing him but honouring him as well.
thought a christian's life may go dry after a while,
(quoting Rachel) take a look back to the first verse you ever said when you're a christian.
John 3:16.
Each time we move on deeper, we have to look at our basis.

anyways.
i havent bathe yet..
come home only use comp..
lol.. and blog..
havent really done tomorrow's hw though..
tml come back gt alot of things to do..
eg. updating my CRS blog.. doing my CRS hw.. haha..

zach.aka.mark.
=)
God of Wonders.

hellos

2006-10-22T09:35:00.000-07:00

after many previous blogs.
most of it which many people dont know.
here is one that you can visit and tag openly =).
if u wan to link me just leave me a tag or give me ur link on msn.
Have fun reading my posts =P

Currently listening to D:finitive Worship.(love this cd man.)